I am still sad about leaving my camera at whiskey petes hotel (motel?)

I am mad that I had the coolest video in the world on there of a countdown on the Vegas Strip to the new year with my husband and 3000000 people all in one intersection. And a super awesome new years kiss.

ugh, I could slap myself.

So theres a freaking lame-o Myspace picture of me. PEACE sign and all.

time to get a new camera. that I will super glue to myself, so I will never lose it.

So, A lot has happened. My sister Maren is moving. :(sad. To Seattle, WA.

I pretty much cried for about 3 hours. She's my best friend, and she will be so far away.

It makes me sad to think about. It also makes me think about how many friends I have, that isn't family... then I cried some more. when did I become so friendless? Why does everyone have to be so busy?Aren't I worth some time?- I mean gosh! I think I am pretty fun, but then again I am pretty biased. I went shopping by myself today. It was fun at first but then got real old. I mean, I found Dorothy shoes at goodwill and I had no one to laugh about them with. ( to be quite honest, i TOTALLY wanted them, and wish that I could wear them all the time...) I feel so a lone sometimes. I wish I could hang out with someone that has a completely different family- and loves to just do things out of their comfort zone, doesn't mind a drive to Scottsdale just for a cupcake, or to a Goodwill around the corner. I feel like I am sending out an AD for a friend.

I feel so worried that when Maren leaves I will be very distraught, and angry and sad. that scares me.

And why do I dislike church so much right now? holy cow. I might just need a new ward- but I seriously sometimes would love to go without going at all. That also scares me.

Oh yes, and I might buy a house soon..

OOOOOOh snap